I'm so much better at identifying what's wrong with other people or what could be wrong with them but my self reflection is so bad

I think im hypersexual i also think that there's probably sormthing else wrong with me but I'm bot sure what it is or how bad it is or what I wish someone cared enough about me to help me figure it out or become a better person in general even though I dont really want to get better which is like a bad thing probably bfjk I'm not a bad daughter or a bad girlfriend atleast I don't wanna be either of those things I dint wanna be a bad memory either I've always tried to be a positive influence or example in other people's lives but I'm so bad at it bruh I don't think it's for me but I hate being selfish I need to do things for other people I need to cut myself for sam and post it cuz I love him and it'll make him happy and I need to get a tattoo to make my parents happy and I gotta listen to jlo lore for my sister cuz it'll make her happy and I'm like fukfk

I think in my dream I got molested by Andrew tate and he was also my teacher and he kicked m3 out of school

Can't remember if I took my vitamins today ToT

My parents still love me even tho I suck sam still loves me even tho I suck Sierra still loves me even tho I suck and I don't make nearly as much of an effort as I want to or as I should and I kinda wonder if I have some type of ocd because I kbow eating disorders r a type of ocd and fhjk well I dunno I feel lik3 sucu a stereotype not even my own person I'm always someone else's person and I need it to be that way

Ill like ask myself what I'm doing and keep continuing to do it anyway I don't care

I don't care if I'm being used or groomed or what I feel loved and I need that so bad maybe it's vuz my mom also got groomed by my dad so it feels right to me too

But I don't care it doesn't matter and I'm not complaining about anything just reflecting so I can understand myself bettr

My mouth tastes like I took my vitamins but I can't remember taking them idk if I should take them now