All i do is worry people and then when they offer me help i dont take it so its really all my fault that im so depressed all of the time i don't deserve any of these nice things people do for me i feel so incredibly guilty anytime i vent to someone i just wanna live a nornal life but i keep pushing everyone away abd its all my fault that im so sad all of rhe time and everything is jusr so so tiring even talking to people i love just feels like a chore and im just being distant with everyone idk i just reallt hate myself and i dont deserve any of this kindness people show me i dont think i can have friends im srry ive been bad im so tired i want to be better and i want to be a good friend but im too tired and alone all the tine and i hardlt talk to people sometimes j have to force myself to talk to others a lot of the time