Im not even looking for pity I dont want anyone to feel bad Im just genuinely such a horrible person

I really really want therapy because Im just so tired of feeling this way I just wish I could be normal, I dont want medication anymore I just wsnt to be normal I dont know what went wrong I dont know whats wrong with me I dont understand Im so so unlikeable I know this because even my own friends don't like me, they always talk to other people. They always leave me. Seriously, I deserved all the bad things that happened to me. I'm so, so horrible.

All i do is hurt people anyways ugh Im serioulsy just better off dead I wish ive never existed

Im so retarded deadass I failed killing myself like twice are you serious I cannot be this stupid

Please do people even like me I doubt it I have no personality and i know soon all of them will leave me, it always happens I really wish i could change but ive hanged out with so many bad people I just cant change even if i really wanted to

I should just kms and get it all over with ig :// but ill probably fail like always smh!!!! stop being such a retard

I dont even know what to do anhmore I just want to sleep forever please its really all i want

I dont want to go to school Im tired

I just want a break from all of this I dont want to be here anymore

Why am i so stupid

I just wish i wasnt me I hate myself so much

I dont care anymore atp i do not care if im going to hell or not anything is better than just being here Im so horrible I cant even Im not even smart Im so fucjing stupid I cant. Do thisl I cant even focus in class its so bad the teacher had to remind me multiple times i had to take a fucjing test but no instead i was writing down the study notes becaude i didnt pay attention last time I cant pay attention for shit Ahhh im gonna end up homeless

I hate my life i hate everything

Why am i so disgusting I dont get why im like this

I hate everything that i do and say its so dsigusting

Heh at least i will meet my mom in heaven ahh

Being sad is so emo stop being emo enzo

I nenedd to do something like idk harm myself but I csnt even do that im so lazy I cant get up

and wheenver i do it always sucks ass why cant i cut deep why cant i just cut my arm off why am i so scareed if i want to die so bad what happened huhhh

Im just a pussy

ts!!! is cringe :/ grow up

I dont even know what i want

this is srslt so horrible ill never be happy with my life what the **** do i do

Why cant i actually be happy for once why cant i let myself be happy

I dont get why i want it to always get worse what am i trying to prove bruh

Im the worst

I just want to erase my existence forever i dont want anyone to remember me but who would even remmeber me bruh huhh dont need to do allatt peoppe will grt over my death in like a day

im not memorable

This is actually so stupid im so sensitive :/ no way bro is abt to cry bruh ur 15 get a JOB!!! get out!!!

probably wont be able to get one anyways im so lazy i cant get myself to do shit all i do is drink cut and then cry myself to sleep ;-; buhh

wait noo i still have to live to catch the bathrooms on fire hahhhh

yeah ok whatever

i seriously hope i die

i will get my friend to record my death trust

noo i have to live i love him so much ohh

OH MY GOD cant i jst die already what is bro waiting for

so so stupid i hate myself I HATE MYSELF

I SWEAR IM gonna do it i just dont know how or with

like the **** am i gonna kms with bro

Like not overdosing cuz thats long and it hurts

And no im not gonna stab myself i tried to but I couldnt do it i was so scared for some reason tried hanging too but :/ i didnt know how to tie the noose

cuz im retarded

and cant do shit

I jst want to die in my sleep vro😭🙏 iswear

like let me die peacefully ple

Ooo i remember that one time i tried to kms i texted my friend and he told me to shut up🥹 Another reason for me to live!

he cares abt me bru

at least when i die i wont do homework anymore🥹🙏 god bless

take me to the afterlife already vro

ok

Im still on the waiting list It has been like this for like 9 months now I aslo havent been tsking medication Idk feeling like the government is tryna poison me cuz why dont they want me to BE myself :/

I hate taking my meds bc it makes me feel like a robot idk

I dont think im able to anyways I have to wait till im sober :/ which is probably gonna be a long timee