Problems? For real though I feel like some crap

Even if no one wants to listen I’m gonna let it out My grandma died this morning and I feel like mourning really hard No one in my family looks like they care about it My grandma was like my friend when I was little My friends kind of forgot about me Which makes me f e e l lonely I’m close to cutting my arm ( I need comfort in either art or my dog ) I’ve gotten bullied because of a squabble I got into at school I need to do art therapy or cry in the shower