Stars ✨
by:
Taboo-Lagoon 
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06.04.2020
30 comments
demgelicfox
06.04.2020 02:02
LinkS t a r s
Suspicious-Stew
06.04.2020 02:02
LinkSHUT UP
demgelicfox
06.04.2020 02:02
LinkAre you venting
Or is this just an edgy post?
demgelicfox
06.04.2020 02:03
Link@suspicious-stew
What did i do?!
Suspicious-Stew
06.04.2020 02:03
Linkdemgelicfox
06.04.2020 02:07
LinkWait-
You-
You decided to cut yourself again?!?
I thought i told you to stop!
No one hates you, you are not a monster nor a people pleaser!
Don't do this again!
I DONT GET WHY PEOPLE FIND THIS AS A JOKE.
Hey, talk to me, I'm here for you,,
Taboo lagoon is one of my closest FA friends!
I wasn't sure if she was venting or not!!!
Stars. The stars have it so much easier. People and animals, souls who have passed on for a bad reason leave to live in the stars. I want to be it there. I want to be a star. I want to drown, to burn, to fly off a cliff and crash, fall into the depths of my own hell and become a star.
I guess it’s just attention seeking; I guess there’s nothing wrong. But there something not right. I feel it. The stars are warning me, or maybe they’re calling me home. Home. I miss home. Can’t I be a star again?
It's not attention seeking...
You were always truly a star, deep down
And I know it’s not me... or is it? How did I die again?
The last thing I remember was choking. Was it a rope? Water? It was my fault. I’m the star who slipped. I’m the star who keeps coming back because she keeps killing herself.
Bang
Bang
Bang.
Ember. Is that my name? What was it before? I had another name. Apollo. I was Apollo.
Crash and burn
Apollo.
I remember it. I was so sorry to leave them; to leave him. He just wasn’t right for me.
None of them were.
Was it a dream? Or did I kill them all?
I feel the scars burning again. They’re telling me not to think this far back. I’m not supposed to remember this much. But I know. I know things I shouldn’t know.
I know I’m likely to die.
I know why I know things I’ve never learned.
I know history before history.
I know why I talk to myself.
I know why I cry myself to sleep.
I know
I know
I know.
Too much for such a small person. Am I a person? Is this all a dream? The butterfly.
It came. I saw it. And I tried to show them. But is disappeared. Right before my eyes. This life isn’t real. When we die, we become the real us. Stars.
Take a deep breath
Everything's gonna be alright, wether you like it or not
Breathe child. Breathe little star. But I can’t, can I? Everything costs something, and the price of the air is too much. I can’t breathe. It’s not allowed. Stars don’t breathe. They just exist. How?
Where am I again? I’ve gone too far into my mind.
Then you a one of a kind star
You don't JUST exist, you LIVE
You make others smile, you're allowed to breathe !
I feel my arms weaken. Is it time to go home? Let me say goodbye first.
Or maybe I shouldn’t. I shouldn’t cause more pain. My mind races, my heart slows it’s beats.
Pitter patter.
I can hold on a few more minutes, but the glow in my eyes is becoming brighter. Stars welcome me. I welcome them as well.
I know I’m scaring you away. But maybe it’s for the best. You shouldn’t be around when a star explodes. It’s dangerous.
My inner Star is speaking. Maybe it’s time to let go. I wonder, as my Star is on the outside, how much of me is breaking inside. It’s okay, it’ll be over soon.
We love you no matter what (nh)
If that is truly what you wish for...
Then i'm glad i met you
You'll always be in my most precious memories
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