why is my self esteem so low lmfao prob because everything that came so easily to me before is suddenly so much harder but why should i even care im failing one class, what does it matter? i can just transfer out but apparently if i do that ill feel like i killed someone sooo which is actually stupid bc whats a perfectionist supposed to do when shes failing its just a class but also not because like my grades were the one thing that were always consistent i can hate how i act and feel ugly sometimes bc at least im good at that yk? and now that im not idk where to get validation from im not the kind of person who can just feel good about myself on my own and tbh im not feeling very externally validated rn i just transferred schools and i dont know people very well here its like i forgot how to make friends and im worrying way to much that people are judging me all the time