idk, something hits different when your friends boyfriend tells you to kill yourself everyday, in which he told you to hang yourself yesterday. Ontop of that you already think everybody hates you and wants you dead anyway, so you start to think of doing the unthinkable. Because he keeps egging you on to do it, you might as well anyways, so you grab a rope and almost hang yourself, but just then another friend apart of that group swoops in and you guys talk and play idv coa matches together and you feel a bit better until you log off of idv and find the boyfriend of your friend picking a fight with you. But you dont want to place bad intentions, and you want to be the bigger person. So you walk away and take a breather and talk it out with someone else whos responsible and get a drink of water. You don't want to constantly play the victim or anything so you hold your breath without saying anything because you dont want to make your bestfriend upset for his boyfriends actions because it isnt his fault anyways.