having mental crisis personality crisis I want to be a good person but all I think about is bad shit like so bad I wanna pukies I have a tendency to be easily influenced which is why I am SOO groomable according to my hot handsome amazing ex boyfriend, P1stol, Diego, blah blah blAH who cares, he has encouraged me to do some baaaaaad shit one time of vc he asked me if I had cut myself at the time, and I said yeah it was a big problem of mine and he thought it was so cool and sooo hot OMG right !!!! he was a zoophile, liked making weird jokes about being ****ed as a dog and shti,,,,,, idk why I dated him ****ed in the head sick demented I loved him so much and I regret not staying sometimes though I hate that I miss him..................................................................................................................................................................................................... thinking about him makes me throw up sometimes teehee

my mom and sisters wanting to stay at a hotel for a little so we could swim and shit but like I didn't want to go at first and I realized if I was home alone it would've been the perfect time and just my chance to finally kill myself like hello /?? my gma wasn't home either ?!?!? I should've stayed,but I was lowkey scareddd,, ikr stoopid..... oh but we didn't stay long, the beds sucked and my sister got kicked out for not having her tribal ID on her while going to get a drink in the casinnnnooooo, but eh the wifi is pretty good lol

llOKOkf ok I'll be srs so liiike I know I fuuuucked up our rellaationship coMPLETELY but I moss u MISS u.. sos o much I want u back so bad I know the way u treat me is like actuallyyy no not rlly tbh u act like a rel pissface whenevr someone even gets the slightest bit angry at u, u make the person feel like its their fault and then u victimize urself to the point where all these ppl are blinded by ur dumb ass act like woah I'm sorry I cant control my longing for love and affection from u to thee point I'm obsessive and a lil bit aggressive heh.. my bad u like to lead people on and cause them mental stress which HEY sounds familiar..... GROOMER ALERT !!!!! maybe not for explicit reasons but definitely to hurt and manipulate me **** u bruh cant believe I let myself get groomed by someone like u I should have never let u back into my life I should have never forgave u I HATE UUUUUUU fhugutg and then I'm the one attacked and treated like shit when no one sees being your allegations o

and then I'm the one attacked for letting myself be vulnerable around u God forbid I let myself get too comfortable with another person like U godddd u r so insufferable " ogh I jus want to lead u on, gain ur trust, use u for art,, talk shit about u, get my friends on u, push u to suicide, laugh about it wit friens,,, and then I wanna apologize half asses,,,, continue to lead you on morr,, get mad when u fin som1 newwwww and then talk more shit, cause more hurt and arguing,,,, and then I wan to make ur life hell !!!!! sugooiii" dawg if u srsly cant see anything wrong with what you did then you are genuinely a freak of nature, sTOP WAIT MID VENT THIS SOUNDS CORNY ASFF