Explanaiton thingy or whatever
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Starlightstarz690 
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11.03.2025
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Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:51
LinkOk... so. This is about my past self and why I was the way I was.
If you knew me in 2020/2021 when I first started this pathetic ahh site that I somehow made some really good friends on either known I probably didn't even deserve it with how cringey
I was sometimes. And I completely get it. Now one thing I did in the past was call random people
I've talked to "friends" without their consent, even though we weren't friends. An example of this
is a person named "HazelHedgie". I used to think of them as some sort of friend but we weren't
even that close, in fact I think I may have made them uncomfortable a few times.
Another thing I used to do was argue alot in childish ways and get in the middle of arguments
I shouldn't have, that weren't even my arguments. I would just throw myself in there and shit,
even if I didn't even know who I was trying to defend, and I either got bullied and told to kill myself by all people involved in the argument for it, or it was a one sided argument I was never able to win
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:51
LinkAnother thing I did was old cringey fanart, and acting like a fangirl, shipping myself with characters who were ADULTS while I was still 11-12 years old. I realize that was actually ****ing disgusting of myself now looking back at it.
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:52
LinkBecause even if it was a fictional character I used to simp for I still realize me, as a minor, shipping MYSELF with an adult character is still f-ucked up
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:54
LinkI was also a kid who didn't know boundaries and never took the signs from people that were clearly hostile towards me and wanted me to leave them alone. If I had some 11 year old kid constantly commenting on every single post I made I would've been mad and annoyed too
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:56
LinkLooking back at myself when I was 11-12 years old, now almost being 15, it makes me feel horrible for how I was a while back because I was annoying, a disgusting self-shipper (LUCKILY I DIDN'T MAKE NSFW BUT IT WAS STILL CRINGEY, I WOULD NEVER DRAW NSFW UNLESS IT WAS LIGHT), and just a genuine nuisance to people when they clearly didn't want me talking to them/commenting on every single one of their posts
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:58
LinkThank GOD I stopped to actually mature myself because unfortunately, sometimes people my age and sometimes older just don't mature, and I feel bad for people like that
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 21:59
LinkAnyways that's my shitty rant that probably nobody is gonna look at hehehehaw but it's at least nice to finally get this off my chest
Starlightstarz690[OP]
11.03.2025 22:04
LinkOh yea I remember it was also really weird/confusing trying to talk to me and I was also obsessive over a few old friends
Like talking to me 3 years ago made me look like I was having a stroke
Remember that English is my first language too
It’s alr, I totally get you. We were all immature goofy little kids once who didn’t know better. I can say for myself in 2020-2021 I was kinda all over the place too. But I remember in 2021 someone who I won’t name tried canceling me js because I was a gacha kid 🙏💔💔
Anyways I’m proud of you of how far you came :3 it’s nice
At least you know what you did back in the day was bad. You can grow from that and improve to be a better person everyday and grow more mature<3
Cool I got mentioned and I happened to randomly exist here at this very moment. W o a h. Anyway, yeah, I did see you a little too close back then. Good observation back there. xD You know it's a good thing you're looking back and actually changing. So no need to be upset anymore about how you we're in the past. :) In fact, I'm happy that you're moving pass the past. Some people I've met never change- It gets pretty bad knowing they have not decided to move on.
Oh and if it helps, I was indeed an idiot sandwich in the past. xD Have a blessed day/night!
WAIT I never knew you saw this!! Thank god you forgive me for my actions