Me remembering when my dad used to hold me to help me rollerskate so i wouldnt fall and he'd compliment me when i was able to do it without holding onto him

Me remembering when i would lay on my dads back and he would crawl through the water and we would scare my brother as the "lake monster" when we went swimming

Me remembering when my dad would draw and color with me at my aunts house when we had a few hours together before i had to go back to my moms house

Me remembering when i always forgot to turn off the light and he would scream in my face me when he woild drink many cans and bottles of beer a day me when he would scream at me for leaving my shopkins on the floor and saying that i was trying to kill my sisters repeatedly and i was 7 years old me remembering how i cleaned the whole shelf for him and i was 5 and he came home drunk and screamed at me and told me it looked like shit

Dad do you still love me? Am i still your little girl? You wouldnt love me if you knew who i really was, dad

Im sorry dad im sorry i havent spoken to you in 3 years im sorry you haven't seen me since i was 14 im sorry im sorry for being a terrible daughter i wish i was strong enough im sorry dad

Daddy when you look at the pictures of me i hope you feel okay daddy when you packed up all my belongings and sent them over here i hope you didn't feel sad daddy i hope when you think of me you cant remember my face daddy i hope when you hear my favorite metallica song you dont think about me daddy i hope when you see a black and white kitty stuffed animal you don't think of me daddy i hope when you see hello kitty you dont think of me daddy i hope when pusheen you dont think of me daddy i hope when im dying you don't come to my hospital bed daddy i hope when im dead you dont come to my funeral daddy i hope you forget me

I wish i couldve been good enough for you daddy

Im sorry dad