my friends wanna call tonight but i feel like its just gonna be venting and awkwardly comforting each other and inknow that sounds selfish but i just cantstand it

i can feel my dad's sentiment of "youre either a ***** or you can man up" fighting with my sentiment of "dont assume how someone feels or how badthey have it and do NOT think your problems are automatically worse because you hide it from everyone" i hate hate hate how much i sound like him sometimes

i just wanna isolate myself again lowkey i love my friends but everythint is easier when no one cares about me and i dont care about anyone else and i can live in my own little world

just gotta keep reminding myself havign friends is supposed to be something u commit to and its worth it its worth ittttt

unrelated but i found my dads weed stash lmfao