I want to cry. I actually hate ****ing living. its shit.

I hate everything about life. I just want to die. I am not even important.

I am ****ing useless. im tired of everything...

I just make stupid ****ing art. A goddamn copy of someone else's. Im. ****ing. tired.

Shit. its not even art. heh...

Im ****ing fake. I act like im so damn happy all the ****ing time. im not. im so close to just ending it. I cant make anyone happy. I suck everyones asses to make them accept me. I cant even make my parents happy. They are ****ing suffering everyday due to my damn meltdowns. I cant even keep my grades up. I just want to sit and play games all day. I cant even remember shit anymore.

i legit would be nothing be rn if people didnt like my "art" </3

I know your trying to make me feel better but, you dont know who i am irl. i am completely different than i am here.

Please,, dont... I honestly love you so much.. Your one of the few people i honestly want to be around... Its just- I am so selfish... I dont try to see how others feel... i jump to conclusions. I just feel like i make things worse for everybody...

Now,, im making you upset...

I really am so happy i have you... I genuinely cant go a day without talking to you... i dont know- but you really mean so much to me... I really love you so damn much. I promise i wont hurt myself..

I- i promise. I love you too..

💖✨ I have to go for a bit... uhm ill be back soon

Talk to you later... same to you