I've started to figure shit out and I might actually know who I am, I'm starting to think about my mental health instead of blocking out my admittedly unstable nature. I'm not gonna say I have anything for sure since I haven't gotten a diagnosis for anything but I've definitely been pretty ****ed up for a while now, and acknowledging that in a way that isn't a suicidal thoughts is pretty cool

I did attempt a while ago (still haven't told anyone about it directly) but I'm doing better now. In a ****ed up kind of way I feel like it was actually what I needed to start caring about myself and my future more, and I've felt better (not too much mind you, but better nonetheless) since. It's led me to start really actually fixing my directionlessness and insecurity, not that I'd recommend anyone else attempt suicide though lol. I'm at 16 now which is mind-blowing, just got hired for my first job which is pretty sick. Definitely shouldn't have been on here at such a young age but whatever, the past is the past ig.

I'm guessing most people won't see this or just won't care but if you do there you go ig. I probably won't ever be active again (like I said 2 years ago) but I might pop in every now and then. Hope everyone else is doing well, ily guys ❤️

I would give the world to talk to any of you again btw so I'll try to check this later today, rn it's 3 am so nobodys really active