I don't want to go to class tmrs but I've skipped this class so much i don't want them to drop me even though I do none of ghe work whatever om not even worried about being sent off to the military anymore because once they know I cut myself i won't be allowed to join i don't think bc they asked me if I did on a backgrojnd check thing and I said no and they said if I lied on the background check then I won't be allowed in

This is cheakmate 😂

;-; so hard to be sympathetic towards me pr empathetic I hate narcissists

6 days they need to go by so quick I can't stand this i hate it so much

I hate everyone ok but not you even when I said i did I didn't mean it TvT sorry I'm hot and I'm cold I'm yes and I'm no

I can't stand by anything I think at all because my mind seitches up all the time cuz one second I feel bad for them and then the next second I really do hate them idk it's the same woth everyone you know me the best out of everyone so you know me ;-; you know thisss

I love you so much i jusg take everything personally I love you so much though I hate this but its only 6 more days that's less than a week so that's good at least ^,^ already freaking out and it's only been a day fhj I dojg know what to do anymore i hate myself i thought the free time would be awesome but I forgot I don't do shit so kts jusg going to be me alone for 6 consecutive days alone eith my thoughts just missing you a lot I don't want to reread things though because it'll just make me sadder I feel really deluded and I haven't felt like myself all day I'm not coping well 😅 not even a little

My mom said I have bad coping skills and self soothing skills and she thinks it has something to do with my mentality or something idk BUT SHDS PROBSBLY RIGHT I can't even get through a week without t t tweaking without you you're how I cope with it all and deal with it all sorry I put all that on you I just can't do it without you kts ok for me to post this to flipanim jt won't change anything except maybe make you a bit happier when you get back

For. A little bit but I really like it when you're happy I remember that one time I made that other post and you really liked it so maybe you'll like this one too actually o think ive made 2 posts like this and u liked both I hope this one has da same effect:>

Everything's gojna get so much better fhfj only 6 days I can do this tmrw I want to start sewing the doll I said I was going to make it's peobblh going to be really ugly though but i think ive got good enough color materials for the skin and hair colofs

I wish I could make it life sized it would be my new c sam I'd never feel bad again maybe I'd hallucinate again and think it's really talking to me

Btw c sam is destroyed idk what the heck happened but when I got back home there was a gap in the middle j guess I'm missing a pillow

WIf i actually am I dont remember what happened I probably took 1 with me to my grandma's house or sometjing part of him

Wish we could turn back time to the good old days

I wknt delete this k not till you see it atleast

If anything ill screenshot but I don't evn rlly use flipanom that much anymore so I'll probably end up forgetting abt this anways

I wish I didnt crack my phoen i rlly am retarded TvT my mom was tlly nice abt it tho I just told her I dropped it in a puddle and she wants to get a new one except she wants me to pay 15 dollars a month for it and I'm g r e e d y and I don't want to but actually wtf is wrong with me ill just pay the 15 dollars bruh

Idk why I did dat

I've had this phone for years and never cracked it and then sam leaves for 1 day and I slam my phone into te wall

And it didn't even break the first few times I just kept hitting it until I heard a crack I was really upset kts just too many things at once

Ibfeel bad now i hope it doesn't get worse because I kinda need my phoen for Uber

Among other things OBVIOULY

But yerp I'm not holding up ok it just 6 days tho actually well 5 days inn a few hours I hope you slept OK and stuff I hope everythinfs going so well TvT fnj I'm getting so anxious I know I'll wake up anxious tmrw again this suck this sucks this sucks this sucks this aucks

Tempted to delete this cuz im not in it i won't though fhj im so upset why wasn't i included i feel mistreated and hated

Kt feels like you hate me even though I know you dont;-; I really want amnesia

That's just how it feels idk I'm so sleepy

I hate everyone fhj thinking about everyone makes me so mad that I start crying nkt just that 1 person irs just everyone now except you and wel my family I gjess

Thinking about everything makes me so mad wht would my 2023 self say if she saw me right now she'd definitely think I won in life she'd like my hair gh why did you make fun of me like that that's an insecurity of mine hey I never brought up ur insecurities but u brought up mine and you brought up things I don't even remember telling you about o don't know why I'd tell you about my sa but I don't know why you'd use that against me either even being mad at me that wasb kinda really bad and I don't know how I forgave that btw this part isn't directed at u sam

I think somethings really wrong with me right now inneed s a m

I jsut need to die that's what o need how is it already almost midnight flipanim saps away my time

Idk if I have any assignments due but I doubt that if I knew whether or not I did that I'd actually do them tch if my teachers knew anything about wht I'm going through they'd just pass me automaticlph

Spread the love not the hate what happened to that maya

S h u t i t s l u t

I fewl so safe thanks

I reread da tumblr posts jt made me smile a lot I feel better already kinda :'> crazy hiw that's all I needed crazy how all I need is you I love you and I love my life I'm gonna ignore the ceaxk and pretend I didn't **** up my phone irs easy to ignore when I elly try

The pixel things r so cool I wanna take a pic omg

Ill get a new phone

I should've stolen that phone j found on campus that one time tch I'm too nice..

It's almost 12 I'm gojnq round up to 5 days now YAYAYAYYA ONL 5 DAYS THATS LIKE A SCHOOL WEEK I CANT WAIT TO WAKEUP TMRW AND FINISY SCHOOL SO I CAN WORK ONBTHE DOLL WAIT CHECKING TO SEE IF I RRLLY HAVE THE RIGHT FABRIC OR IF I IMAGINED

Nvm I only have yellow T .T it's ok i have white too I can make it work

I fele better I think

I love you so much i think I'll just sleep now that I'm feeling good ^w^ 5 long days ahead kill me just effing kill me pull thevtrigger

starting to feel weird I thought Id wake up in a good mood but I woke up really anxious again and idk how to explain it but it feels like my eyes are pushed all the way back but its not tunnel vision I'm so anxious I need you

thisll b my notesapp

The only one who treats me like a person and the only one who understands is you sam

Idk how to be my own person it's really easy to want to help everyone but myself cuz I don't even know where to begin and it makes me upset need other people to do it for me

SCREAMS I FORGIT I HAD. A PROJECT DUE just kidding wait I didn't even know I had. A project due to begin with sike xD

How do people actually want independence and think it's a good thing i hate that everu1 says I need to start being more independent and that I shouldn't have to live under anyone like my mom does cuz she can't support us on her own she needs my stepdad but honestly I could live like that forever actually when my mom threatened to kick me out recently I thought I'd just move to her exs house even tho he was abusive and sa'd me as a kid i still genuinely considered going back because I don't want to live on my own heh he'd probably jsut go all the way now that I'm an adult but I'd still rather go through that then get a place by myself maybe I am just a s l u t or maybe something is just wrong with me idk can someone diagnose me

Samm

I love you we're gonna elope let's elope pls let's enlope

I need you sam

I gonna binge i dont effing care it won't even make a difference ive been eating better but I can't get past 100 lbs I'm living the dream

And evn that won't make me feel better I'm eo upset this is all your fault fliapnim

My laptop screen popped out

No not yet also I don't know who's on this acocunt is this gavo or jordan

Hi gavø