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-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 03:47
LinkI’m going to be selfish for a minute
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 03:53
LinkWhat the hell gives anyone else the right to say “please don’t kill your self” but yourself
Why do I have to feel like the asshole for trying to give myself a final ****ing relief
Why am I a horrible person when I feel like hurting myself
You have absolutely NOTHING to do with it
“I’m sorry I hope you feel better” doesn’t ****in cut it, if you want to help just shut the **** up. It’s better I think no one cares rather than think everyone pities me but not enough to truly care.
There’s no wonder why I feel like I’m being used all the time- it’s the same conversation every single time. “Hi hru?” “Not good” “sorry bout that hope u feel better!” “Thanks” “Anyway I…”.blah blah blah blah blah
**** me for being tired of it though right? **** me for getting sick of it when I say “we already had this conversation weren’t you listening?” **** me for being so god damn entitled that I say shut the hell up to your pity
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 03:59
LinkI’ve tried bawling my eyes out for help
I’ve tried to get past it be tried to move on
Nothing is working- SO **** ME IF I WANT TO KILL MYSELF! I’m sorry okay? Sorry you became friends with me I’m sorry I tried everything I could to impress you I’m sorry I pushed myself to help you even when I wasn’t ready
I’m sorry that I ****ing cry when you tell me that you can’t stand being around someone so goddamn draining
Someone so sad
Someone so ****ing pathetic
This whole positive “I’m here if you need me!” Act is just that. An act. I’m tired of it
The world is a horrible horrible place and I don’t understand why I have to feel so horribly selfish trying to leave it behind
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 04:01
LinkI hate you and myself
I’m so goddamn tired of helping everybody else when I clearly haven’t even made it a foot out of the hole yet
I’m so tired of this
I should’ve never had told anybody
I should’ve just done it
I wanted so desperately to be saved though I let the fantasy cloud my head
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 04:06
LinkYou’re not being fair
No one is
If you really want to leave me behind just do it all at once
Stop prolonging the pain- it makes me sick
If I’m really draining
If I’m really not what you wanted
If I’m really as annoying as I think I am
Please just let me die
Let me kill myself without feeling guilty
It’s not fair to make me keep this up
It’s not fair that I have to deal with this shit at home, go to school and say “this happened but it’s chill ig” I can’t tell anyone I want to kill myself because they’ll either worry too much about it or they’ll report me
But that’s just it
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF
That doesn’t necessarily mean I will
I’m too scared
I’m a coward
I’m stuck though and I’m about to just completely ****ing shut down again
I just want it to stop
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 04:07
LinkThe bottom line is I’m isolated at this point
There’s nothing I can do but wait it out
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 04:10
LinkI can either accept that no one’s coming to save me
Or drag on this daydream until I go insane or something
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
18.12.2023 04:10
LinkI’m so sorry