ok now that the demon under my bed shut up- this family is completely stoopid so my parents make me suicidal sometimes i cant tell my therapist about this because she has to tell my PARENTS anything that might cause harm to me or others so what the **** it would be an endless, stupid cycle if i DID tell her and she DID tell my parents, i swear i'd get kicked out or hurt, and all my electronics would be taken away for uh probably forever lmao but what the **** i guess i have to deal with this shit for 2 1/2 to 4 1/2 years longer but ive survived over 13 years here so uh i think i will survive a few more lol