Just because I was a gifted student doesn’t mean I’m still ahead of my peers today I feel like some teachers still expect more from me, like my English teacher 😔 And meanwhile, all my former gifted classmates are club presidents and such,,, I still don’t even know how to fix my grammar

I'm just going to make this my rant or whatever anim heh,,, bc I don't like making shitposts My parents keep getting into arguments and use me as a spy or tool to ‘attack’ the other person :/ They don’t even consider my feelings whatsoever. My mom told me not to touch the wifi, but I didn’t understand her clearly over the phone, so I made a mistake when I got back home. Then she starts belittling me for it, and I didn’t even understand what I did wrong?? Turns out she did all of that just to see if my dad was lying about the wifi password UGHSGHrghhh,, I swear, they’re good people when they’re not around each other. I don’t know why both of them turn toxic once they’re in the same house My dad suddenly becomes super aggressive and boundary-pushing (like. nuzzling into my neck??) And my mom is honestly pretty cool, it’s just that she has a fragile ego and tends to hurt other people, and almost never apologizes for it :'D siiighhh

wwwww I’m so tired Idk why I feel like people are calling me names behind my back People has done it before but err in front of me instead,, 😭?? I’m scared if everyone actually has a negative option on me Like, what if I’m too annoying? There’s already many things I regret saying Idk why I can’t be quiet like during freshman year aughh,, I wasn’t even as active online during freshman year nor did I have irl friends Hshsshsh

I don't feel like drawing anymore sorry

I don’t think I’ll ever meet anyone’s expectations or what they truly want I don’t know how to say the right things I don’t know how to be a good person I feel like I shouldn’t exist anymore, all I cause are problems

my dad calls himself 'daddy' to me HSLEP T_T I'm doing my HW and he randomly tells me to stop depending on him? I depend on my mom more either way so err,, idk what he's talking about. I don't even try to rely on him in any way.

My friend keeps making fun of my accent and it’s starting to bother me :/ I’m usually OK with talking or teasing abt my accent once in a while. But I feel hurt when they tease abt it constantly (+ laughing with others) I don’t even find that my accent is that thick/strong, it’s just that I can’t pronounce the letter ‘r’ right :( Imagine hanging out with only one friend…. Couldn’t be me!!! Idk why I left my friend group honestly, they were SO kind. I guess I was just rlly scared