The egg is saying good morning and mom said but in the afternoon I KNOW MY SLEEPING PATTERN IN MESSED UP THERES NO NEED TO MSKE FUN OF IT I hate living with family sometimes. This is getting to close to my life

(There are thoughts of suicide and rejection or something idk) I always end up ruining things whenever I try to confront my feelings. I try to tell them things like what I’m feeling, and stuff idk. Nothing seems to get through them and I’m not getting the help that I need. I am going through this on my own. Every time I do this, I ruin the mood, or something and I feel like I made them feel guilty then I feel guilty. I hate this. I hate this world. The people and sometimes myself. I don’t wanna live like this. I just wanna pinch myself and feel the pain. Let people see what I’m going through on the inside but again, I think they won’t get it. I even tried to st@b myself in the leg, mom said that there’s a vain there or something and not even said something about me. I hate the people on this planet. Why is everyone not- ugh whatever

I always ruin everything in the family and I’m the main reason why there’s so much anger, issues, and stuff in the family. I am literally a burden in the family and no one can tell me otherwise cuz it’s true. What do I do. Even if I tried to do something, I ruin everything… talking helps even if no one reads or anything but it helps Sorry guys

I have a post about acc rules and info I’ll post it tomorrow