lie.k someone sent a really pretty picture of xiao and in this server they have tags for people with systems and i’m madly in love w xiao and was like “meow😍” and they were like “ur making me uncomfortable “ so it’s like🧍oh….

i know how to act when it’s a 1 on 1 or smaller gc kinda thing but when it’s a large server with lots of mentally i’ll people.. man i’m terrified

and i rlly don’t wanna be offensive but man i couldn’t tell they were xiao all the people w systems have a tag☹️

crying myself to sleep

i’m terrified of servers at this point bc i don’t want to make ppl uncomfortable by having a pfp of an alter someone has bc of trauma but at the same time these characters are fiction in my life but i can’t say this bc i’m uneducated and it would be offensive but i wanna be able to enjoy the character but i don’t wanna be offensive and i wanna be able to publicly relate to and be li “i’m so in love w ______” but i don’t wanna make them uncomfortable and it’s so much i’m literally about to join a fishing server. it’s all so confusing and it feels like u have to do what they say bc they are the character yk but u still wanna be able to enjoy it. idk pls hel