This is gonna sound really edgy. I feel like I know myself,but I also don’t? I feel like how I see myself personality wise, is too influenced by those around me. My ex friends made me think I was an awkward annoying kid who would follow them around like a dog, while my current friends see me as this smart, artistic girl that would occasionally give good advice. How would i see myself if i was sheltered from anyone that could influence my views and interests. Would I just be a blank slate? I feel like what I know about myself could be written in a 2nd grade essay. “ Sunny likes poutine. Sunny likes to draw. Sunny wants to be a cartoonist when she grows up.” Sunny this,Sunny that. I feel like I'm just acquainted with myself. I want to just think it will come in time, but i have this constant fear of dying too early to grow as a person. Maybe it’s just me. Maybe im just trying to grow up too fast