i attpted twice in that 9 month span i dont even know how im alive

me after losing all of my friends, attempting suicide twice, my mother dying, getting put on psychiatric hold, getting diagnosed with epilepsy, getting kicked out of school, and moving back to my hometown (which was very far away from where i was), my childhood cat and one of my friends dying IN THE SAME WEEK I ATTEMPTED SUICIDE AND GOT DIAGNOSED WITH EPILEPSY?!?????? all from the span of september 2021 to june 2022