i had a weird dream last night

had a dream abt smokin for sum reason nd ion even smoke

every time i took a hit i would start coughin nd chokin which i mean its expected for my first time but towardsrhe end i got used to it which i mean is expected once again basically my dream was me smokin throughout the whole thing nd im not a smoker

might start tho itll prolly help me feel a bit better

ngl im startin to get thoughtless like now whenever i make these posts where im jus talkin my mind goes blank but before i make the post im full of thoughts idk

then shortly afterwards all i think abt is those thoughts basically the i hate myself i wanna die i dont wanna be here anymore those kind nd im not tryna be ventin all day every ****in day

i could draw but ion wanna do that shit either like i said i lowkey hate drawing

not lil low effort shit tho the stuff that takes effort

im hungry but i gotta cook inna few lowkey dont wanna leave my bed

its warm here under my cover but its cold outside not outside like trees nd shit but def that too but outside as in my room my sibkinfs rooms the kitchen the dining room the living room shit like that

38 degrees outside im gonna kms this winter FCK

the temp get any lower ima struggle to breathe I HATE COLD WEATHER

CANT EVEN BREATHE IN WEATHER LOWER THAN 25 DEGREES WITHOUT COVERIN MY NOSE GIVE ME MY 80 DEGREES ND UP WEATHER BACKKKKKKKKK NOWWWWWWWWWUHHHHHHHHHHH

I NEED MY HEAT I NEED MY HEAT I NEED MY HEAT im in heat

okay im back i got the pot on the stove for my lil brothers noodles every time i say i gotta cook its almost always noodles cuz thats damn near all what my lil brother eat

im hungry asf tho but i lowkey dont wanna eat nun cuz ik when i do ima get hungrier

i ate sum food last night nd all it did was make me realize i was hungry the whole time but ian eat nm after that jus took sum ibuprofen nd went to bed literally

magma stop sendin me notifs ion even use that shit