I feel fine I think I don't really have a reason to be sad but I feel sad. Is something missing from me? I feel like somethings missing. No matter what I do my family isn't proud of me. I hurt every one who I love or loves me. I wanna pause reality and just breathe in total silence for 5 minutes. My family hates my friend for know reason, and won't let me see them. I try to make everyone Ik happy but I struggle to do that to myself. We're all gonna die one day and there's no stopping it no matter how hard we try Can someone tell me what to do? I don't know what to do about anything My mind is probably my worst enemy, I screams at me when I f up or disappoint someone I can't sleep, I try to I really do but I can't it's hard. We could die any minute, we never know when are last 'Goodbye' or 'I love you' is going to be. I may smile but its not always real and no one notices I don't really want a lot of people to notice but like I do want someone to notice. I can't ask to see a

Therapist. My friends shouldn't have to deal with my problems. My family won't understand. That's all for now :')

I'm a shitty person ngl ._.