Its just that typa day, i cant draw nun cus a sudden depresson hit cus mf cant let me have a good week something i noticed is that my lonelyness is 10x worse cus i was dreadfully alone in my yonger years and i think it triggers something in my brain to make me the most misriable i possibly can

Went to a party today and hoped i could party it off and i didnt, i didnt drink unfrotunetly so i couldnt get away from this via drinking wich is good but now i gotta deal with this ughh

i literally woke up this morning thinking "kms" so i just kinda knew it was gonna be this kinda day. Just wish everyone in my life wasnt so bland yk? they're all the same and dont do shit. now that they off to college, i really got no body guhh wish making freinds was easy hopefully I'll get a car and i can just drive at 3 in the morning maybe even speed

I kinda wanna take my anger out and say I HATE YALL but that isnt true, i would be projecting or just taking my anger out on yall idk theres something cmforting about venting in these comments for the possibility to be seen or heard. could be talking to no one but im still ballin maybe if i can put my music loud enough and go to sleep fast enough, i wont wake up tomorrow. Maybe wake the next day. Hope i go to sleep tonight and wake up firday

i genuinly wish i had a therapist cus i cant just keep balling. I can only ball for so long ugh killing myself

chat should i drive away and never stop and see where it takes me?

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