am i just like not enough for anyone?? why do i even try anymore i just get my hopes up thinking i matter to more than a solid like 2 of my friends nobody else ****ing cares anymore guess im just not as important to them as i used to be

hjberiuofwde i wanna believe my friends when they say they care about me but no one ever does anything to prove it anymore so i dont really know how im supposed to shits just going downhill and i only have 2 people i feel like i can trust and rely on if i needed them nobody else really seems to care all that much