First off what I wanna say is, I was going to talk about it earlier but I started talking about the opinion stuff instead. but secondly none of you caused my episodes and how I acted, I didn't want to take proper responsibility for myself and just deflected it on being less self aware. that did play a part in it but I should have properly taken responsibility. I do deeply apologize to the people I made upset and uncomfortable, I'm really embarrassed I acted like that. since I've actually been told I've been deflecting I understand and am embarrassed that I did so. all of my apologies were rushed and half assed and that's not ok at all, im making a proper apology since I'm not rushing into it and not covering everything that happened. but I didn't mean to hurt any of you and say what I said, I was still deflecting from the actual problem and making it more about myself then what it was originally about. children do make mistakes so I shouldn't act like you guys are holding it against me like

ed an actual crime, I'm disgusted I even did for a moment. I'm so glad you guys were actually supportive and educated me on what I did rather then harassing me on it, how I acted was really irresponsible and dumb but thank you guys for educating and helping me on it so much.

This is long but now since I'm fully aware of what I've been doing this I can say it properly