U ever feel like ur always below everyone and everyone is looking down on you but irs deserved because ur so stupid

U ever wanna abandon ur friends because you know ur gonna **** it up somehow and its easier on anyone id u dissapeared and irmts gonna come out that they never actually liked you and is happy this happened

U ever convince urself your friends think ur better off dead

U ever realize how much you wasted ur whole life being alone because you were too scared to talk to people so you-missed out on all your chances to be happy and you can't be upset because it's ur own faulf

U ever **** up ur nly good relationships because you convinced ursslf they hated you so you stopped talking to them and then they never reply and then oh would you look at that ifs been a year since that happened and ita too late to message them going "sorry I thought u were mad at me " because now they haye you and want u dead !!!!!