ok, i'm ****ing stupid, yes, i know, i've been told repeatedly by those stupid voices in my head. the stupid voices that follow me everywhere. that make me say i'm fine, when i'm really ****ing not. i want to cry, but i physically can't, those voices making it almost impossible for me to feel other emotions than depression. have i thought about self harm? yes, several times in fact, but no, the closest thing to me doing that is biting my fingers so much they almost bleed. will i cut? most likely no, because that's the only thing my anxiety is good for. why am i still here? i don't ****ing know honestly, another thing my anxiety is good for. or maybe it's those voices, telling me, if i want pain, then just keep living, so that's what i'm doing. i don't know why i posted this, there are people out there experiencing much worse than me, and my stupid mind won't let me talk about it, so this is the only way. in fact, the only words that seem to come out my mouth these days are 'i'm fine' and a stupid fake smile-

-that some reason people believe is true, in fact, that makes things worse, the voice in my head telling me 'they only like you for the happy, outgoing girl, Imogen, if you show them anything other than that you'll end up all alone,' right now, i don't even know WHY i'm upset, if my mum hadn't made me move house i wouldn't even FEEL like shit, and stupid depression and anxiety wouldn't exist.

my mum doesn't believe in my depression, and they'll tell her if i go to the school counsellors..

yeah, ig i might see the counsellors, idfk

i don't really want to, but thanks anyway..

unless that someone is me, then no, but thank you,,

not really,but thanks anyway..