im not supposed to be venting on here because thats spreading negativity or something but im too ****in lazy to get on another account. ill be found anyway. i dont know

i need to get evaluated

im so fuucking jealous and selfish. i thought it was over!!! it wasnt. im so tired of everything being okay and then im just sad and i dont know what to do or justify my feelings. i look for the reasoning behind it which just makes me feel worse. its 1am and i am full of lemon cake and dread

dude im so fake. all the people who just speak to me on here dont actually know me and i feel so guilty when theyre nice because i just dont know what to do. theyve been so nice and i feel like i have to reciprocrate but i dont know how or i cant communicate appropriately. the people on here who think we're good friends i feel likei barely know and they act like we're best friends it makes me so guilty when they comment because i feel like a liar