the two emotions i show on here is happy and being scared, but why i never vent or snap is because i kinda had this person's words stick with me anytime i talk, "attention seeker" I don't like those 2 words to describe me, and to this day i contemplate if i'm really a good person. I keep ondering if i'm a toxic friend or even just really mean. I have to watch the words i say to my friends or online because no matter what i do, those two words are always in the back of my mind "attention seeker" So anytime i'm about to slip up and vent, i stop myself just to have you guys not worry about me, i don't like help, help makes me feel stupid. So i never ask for anyone to "help me with this" or "pity me because of this" i just stay silent. But behind the screen i'm just confused if this was a good way of thinking, so either of which if i'm fine or breaking down i can't tell the difference because the words "attention seeker" makes me just want to not talk. That person that called me those two words i fear..