Ya, fun fact, I have a really big mental illness and people use as if it was a cuss word or something, they joke with it and I hate it

Suicide isn't funny, and I tried it a few times but I was too scared about leaving my sister. And it Isn't a fun and jokey thing to be messed with. And no, I didn't get sad cuz someone called me dumb, it's because of my parents, who apearently I have trouble communicating with.