Started this back in July, finished it now because the issues I was trying to vent out through this piece persisted. They get worse every Summer and this year has been so bad that the lasting effects and anxiety have carried on into the fall. as the months go by I realize that all my childhood trauma has been linked together, my parents have never taken me seriously and they don't even try to notice that it's getting harder. I CANNOT be around my brother. EVERY SINGLE DAY, FOR 15 YEARS, I've become more afraid of my parent's accusatory and even violent reactions to my INVOLUNTARY reactions to sudden loud noises that he makes, than I am of the noises themselves.