you should not be so open with suicidal feelings. I am not being judgmental, but 70% of people in the world pretend they are okay, and they do not publicly share their feelings about suicide and depression so openly. It is sad that most kids at this time think depression is cool and suicide is something that will give them attention. It is not and it does not make anything better. Sad that people do that. Kids also do it as attention seekers. I don't know how to say this, and this is not an intended insult, but it kinda seems your only doing it for attention and people to feel bad for you, and instead of letting random strangers that you don't even know, you should look for mental help and a real doctor to sort out your feelings about suicide and depression, along with social anxiety. Sorry, but it is just not right to joke around and lie about feelings like this, thank you