self harm tw / / / / / / im rly scared that i'll do somethin 2 myself again coz like im tryna get better but sometimez i just wanna stab a syringe through my handz and other timez i actually do so thatz pretty unswag.

im also like REALLY stressed out abt my gradez i cant ****ing do anything and they put me in honors classes when i failed last year too god i hate this so much i dont understand anything i wish i could be like Hey Mom maybe just maybeeee i have a learning disability have u ever thought of that?? ever???? even a little bit????? EACH YEAH i have the same problem that im expected to just magically fix and if itz been going on this long then THEREZ SOMETHING WRONG!!!!!!!! just coz im "gifted and talented" doeznt mean i can handle all honorz classez for the second year in a row god itz so hard i need a therapist

*each year

hmmmmmmmmmmwhat else 2 vent abat oh yeah Dysphoria :] cant wear dressez without feeling ****in terrible they look nice they feel nice but uhm. therez a. tiny problem. i dont wanna be called cute or pretty i dont wanna be seen az a girl im tired of this can i time travel 2 a few yearz into da future to when im old enough to go on T pleaze pleazeplzplzplz

i cant stop thinking abt someone who hurt me it feelz rly bad but like im so mad all the time GOD he makez me so mad i dont wanna talk to him in person the mere thought of him makez me panic itz weird thinking that someone who i used 2 be best friendz with caused me this much emotional trauma but uehjhejhe thas how mafia workz ig lole

on a SLIGHTLY less negative note im in love with my best friend hrgrhrgr i love them soso much ive liked her since uhsjh 4th grade i think ??? idk i told him i had a crush on them last year but i dont think she fully understood what i waz saying since i worded it weird but i rly wanna,,,tell her,,,,,,,,, idk im scared i'll ruin our friendship ive known them for 7 yearz i dont wanna mess it all up i probably will but i cant just keep bottling this up hrrg

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