I feel like ripping someones face off. And I have all these violent thoughts in my head and I don't feel anything about it. I get so angry sometimes and thats when I get off of FA. And I've been getting off more often, even sleeping more, and taking care of myself but I think that made it worse. It made me more narcissistic. When I talk to people about it they tell me to get help, but I refuse and I lock myself away from them. Of course I can't tell my parents. They'll send me away for good. It all started in the beginning of the school year. I've been getting into school fights, stabbing people with sharp pencils. And I laughed. Theres something seriously wrong with me.