Everyone already has their person or people, there's no space for me. The only ways to secure a relationship that won't find someone else so quickly are romantic and sexual relationships. I don't want either ever. I didn't have non-chicken friends as a kid, but I would watch films where teenagers would have friends and fantasize about having that. I'm a teenager now, and I didn't know then that not making friends as a kid will make it so hard to keep friends later on. Any friends I am able to make avoid me and just wait for me to stop talking so they can talk to their friend friends and their "more than" friends. I feel like a stalker when I try, so I've started just sitting in my room at night. Other aroace people make me feel worse, they date and won't stop talking about how aroace people can date, too and how "We're not loveless aliens! We can still date and kiss!" I feel like I don't even belong where I'm told I do. I miss Cameron.