literally going backwards mentally guys what do I do

and i cannot talk to my current friends since none of them take me seriously or listen to me at all 💔

once I get this new job ill be fine just rn I have no clue what to do and nothing it helping so far I think I am just having a slight mental breakdown or something like that

i think my drawing tablet breaking though was like my last straw almost I was actually in a good mood but once my drawing tablet broke I immediately did I 180 and y

i cant be depressed my hb is getting a dubai chocolate cart tomorrow and were gonna hotbox his car and get sushi

he keeps sending me stupid ass reels and i feel bad bc im not responding but Im so drained i jus wanna zzz

im very tired of this emotional roller coaster im on everyday, almost every hour, is just a different emotion and god its so draining even rn like an hour ago i was about to relapse so I just did stupid mouse drawing and now im still in that slight mindset but im just sooo tired that i dont even wanna do that its too much work im going to bed gb

fart my chuuud life

i met this new therapist that my old one told me to go too and i met her a couple days ago and i told her about my paranoia since its been getting bad gain and when I told her she looked at me like i was weird like okay bye thanks for making it worse girl kms

no one understand me sigh.