Let this day be a normal day just like any other please. I know you'll find this and if you do I'll have letters in my bedroom, they wont be hard to find. I don't deserve to live i only know how to hurt people thats all im good at. Im sorry for everything im sorry im really sorry im sorry I didnt mean to do anything. Its hard controlling myself its hard. I deserve to suffer I dont deserve to live. Im sorry mom im sorry dad im sorry sister im sorry brother im sorry for everything.