Oh god please

I'll just type everything out here so like. Yeah

Oh my god, I finished my band camp today? And I feel like shit because I can play almost none of he notes, and I suck at marching, and the choreography, and all in all band isnt fun anymore but my dad wont let me quit but if I do find a way to quit it's the only way I can see my friends? Because my school does this hing every years since I moved here 4 years ago where it gives me no classes with friends or anyone I can at least have a decent conversation to. And so after camp today i was really stressed and i was probably just gonna lose function in the middle of the camp but i didnt but then my sister came around and god is she annoying. She does this thing that gets on my nerves, she goes "I know I knq" and hisses when someone tells he

R something she doesnt like and she keeps gently hitting my when I told her to stop multipleb****ing times and I was super close to beating the living shit out of her ass because honestly I'm sick of her *****ing and complaining and being annoying and just. **** her. I hate her so ****ing much. The amount of times I had to hold myself back from kicking her to the floor and stepping on her face was way too many. And then, school starts in less than 2 weeks and I hated that place so much. But I'm going to high school and I'm bot sure if it's better or worse but I'm terrified. Middle school made me want to hurt myself and other people a lot and in general made me untrusting and made me realize that I cant tell anyone in this idiotic town anything or I'll just be less popular. Everyone just treats me like I'm insignificant compared to them when actually I am? I am so much better than basically everyone in my town but I cant ever show it. I feel like I just cant show anyone who I really am and it sucks.

Hmgmgn another thing is that I'm kinda tired of being ignored by. A lot of people. My family kinda ignores me a lot and people on here have kinda been ignoring me and I have a constant need for attention yknow, I wish I didnt but I do. So just. A whole mess of problems.

My sister is a ****ing assholr. She doesn't listen to people and acts like she's better but we all know I am. If she doesn't get what she wants she throws a fit and I'm sick of that, especially when she disrespects my grandma. My grandma does all this awesome stuff and that's how she gets repaid

Honestly just you talking to me has made me feel so much better dude, thank you so damn much