When half the time i am not the problem really, it is just your attitude

But being the person i am that seeks validation from everyone and cant stand when someone is mad at me, i try to settle things by manipulating myself to believe i am the one who should and will take the blame

I do it with everyone. Especially you

And when you react badly to things i say or do i feel like shit even if i did little to nothing

And now gou are actually trying to off yourself because i said something and came out about shit and i just feel terrible and feel like doing it too because of how bad i feel

I just wanted a best friend that would actually talk to me and laugh with me over stupid shit

And i am way too attached to you

I hold on to all of the little things

And I want so bad to be able to talk to you about the things that bother me but i feel like i cant because i would feel terrible if i vented to someone who has and still is going through so much

I want to talk to someone i just feel so hurt but i dont want to bother anyone with my dumb shit

now i am 😣

Talking to ppl ^^

About random shit