I want to type something but nothing is coming to mind. Choir concert at 6:30

Why do all my friends hate me im trying to make sure theyre ok and ssafe and happy but i feel like just because i like immature stuff it makes me automatically something to laugh at well now the words came out huh im tired but i dont think i should sleep ill kust set an alarm i dint even hve the energy to make my voice sound happy whejnmy mom just called me im so glad she didnt notice

I feel really lonely even though i have people who care

I think

I cant go a day without thinking about my dad and really really bad memories and i just thought of it again obviously coz i typed jt snsbbsnjsjisjksosossiwi i should just say hi at least but then he will guilt trip me or spam call me or soemthing idk im tired but im being a terrible kid by isolating myself from all that side of my family djidnshsisisiis

Ill just take a nap now and maybe ill wake feeling better for my concert

OMG DISISHBSHSHS THERES AN ALARM SOUND CALLED CARNIVAL i better be jolly when i hear ts when i wake ul