I don't know why I didn't do it I guess I was excited to finally be getting help But who am I kidding? It doesn't change At least for me This isn't a phase, karen This isn't some problem in my brain These emotions are valid and happening for a reason you *****

I'll keep my mouth shut Tell my therapist I'm doing okay Tell my mom I'm doing amazing And go through with the plans It's Rorochan all over again I'll become a legend I'll be on the news I'll be noticed by the FBI and CPS They'll pay even if it means I have to sacrifice everything

I don't wanna die I just want to try to die I'm terrified that after death there's nothing Falling from three stories wouldn't be enough to kill me unless I hit my head 50% of people who fall from four stories die So an even less chance for three stories The most it'll do is knock me unconcious, maybe break some ribs and my arms, maybe I'll be in a coma I don't know This hurts to think about