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13.08.2019
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Lidercider
13.08.2019 04:44
Linki ****ing hate it-
unless you aren't a noble emperor who commits seppuku its dumb.
but if i committed it i would stab my neck or hang myself
Pills seems more painless and peaceful, its what I'm gonna do if anyone ever finds out and I get sent away with pills tbh.
1. i don't really like it, since you and my mom/older brother exists, and they're the only three people that give me a little joy/support in life.
2. i would do the occasional "hanging" to myself if i had the courage and stuff to
Well, suicide isn't the way out,but if I did I would probably take some pills
1. it is bad and my family will be sad if i did it but i used to have thoughts about it
i would pill my self
I had actually almost taken my life around this May, I had stopped myself. I was planning on taking a shit ton of ibuprofen. I would probably have died, it was 7:28am and my sister dad left for school and my dad was at work. No one was home, my dad would have been home at around 1:30pm my sister at 2:55pm. Even at 1pm I would have died. I was planning on taking a half of the whole bottle, like 3 or 4 at a time because i couldn't do all at once.
Heres why,
I guess you could say I've been suffering with depression for awhile, even suicidal thoughts. I hated myself and all that jazz,
(it has a lot to do with really personal stuff that I'd really rather not talk about)
Anyways, I always felt like a had no purpose and that I was a constant reminder that I was a reason my dad didnt get to have a good life, family, and job. I would always cry at night. I even eventually started self harming. I probably have what is going to be a permanent scar on arm. I tried talking about what I was feeling at a
Younger age, but anytime I did I was always judged and compared to others. People just saying to tough up. So eventually I gave up trying to get help after a couple of years.
I always told myself to stop being pathetic and people have it worse than you, stfu. To this day I still do.
I was always angry and sad at the same time, I felt as my only escape was death. I considered achohal and cigarette
That's why I almost attempted suicide. When I had stopped myself and called a family member and told them. I walked to their house. They talked to me, told me my life wasnt that bad, and I was dumb, that I shouldn't be stressing about being successful and trying to get a job when I'm 16 or dropping out of school to get a job
Even though we make 33 grand a year, barely afford Bill's and sometimes we'd just run out of money completely.
He knew that.
My dad found out,
Talked to me,
And I sent think once,
If I remember correctly did he ever say "I love you."
Bu afterwards, I was still depressed. Always crying. I've had family members even say they dont care about our depression. Well months later,
I didnt feel sad anymore, but I didnt feel happy either. But I definitely knew my purpose now.
My purpose, was not to go to Harvard and become some sort of fancy architect, lawyer, or politician.
It was to I found it just to be nice and help others
So that's why know I'm going to grow up and help other people. Homeless, drug addicts, little kids. That's what my purpose in life is.
This is exactly like my life story, but a little more different
I think no one should do it
Ive never thought of doing it but I've started to cut myself
I realized that it would most likely scar
And so I'm gonna try and stop
But who knoww
And I would probably drown myself or something like that
Maybe just bash my head against concrete if I had to
Yeah, you really should stop. No one should, and if anyone ever needs help or to talk to someone I'll be here and listen. Just let me know and I'll respond as soon as possible
I absolutely hate the thought of it, many people think it is just a way to get rid of the pain you're feeling, when really it isn't. Instead of taking away the pain it grabs it, and spreads it to all of your loved ones.
If I were (Which is extremely unlikely) I have always had a fascination with fire. That would probably factor in somehow, see how it feels to be burned.
I've always thought about committing it to go away from my problems(about my family and school....u know)I starting think about cutting myself when my family wasn't watching, and I still think about it till dis day on ;')