About a year ago this guy who I'll call by his real name (he doesn't not deserve concealment) Andres, began to have a crush on me. Im not sure wether his feelings were real at all but it wasn't mutual, i was pressured into the relationship because of how many people were around (Most if not all of them were recording) We "dated" for around 3 months before he suddenly cut it off, which i was okay with completely as another guy who liked me asked to date me, which i have consent to not knowing how bad of a guy he was either. A few weeks in and someone runs up to me in the halls of the school ,someone I don't even know and bluntly asks- "ARE YOU THE GIRL WHO SLEPT WITH ANDRES?" The rumors spread like wildfire and guess who was getting called a sl3t for the rest of her 8th grade year? Sure things calmed down after a bit but I'm still constantly feeling him looking at me, staring, like he wanted to do something absolutely disgusting to me... mind you I was only 13- 13... But yeah that's it...

I'm not looking for attention with posting this, fûck no, I just need to get the word out in a sense, I don't care if someone else had it worse or what not, I'm telling my story and that's it. No hard feelings to anyone else

I'm gonna hop off for a bit and try to clear my mind a bit, gonna try and take a small nap so im not so groggy and foggy minded or whatever u call it

Also just imagine being a super antisocial kid who just likes to be immersed in the digital world, suddenly having to put it all down and deal with real ****ing conflicts that could and did mess me up mentally. I could've been a lot more comfortable around guys but because of that one incident I'm super cautious around guys older or my age, I know I need to grow out of it but it takes time