BRO WHAT 💀

It's alright lmfaooo

IT'S OKAY

It's okay it's not your fault lmfaooo

Ahhh ilyyy

NUH HUH

NUH HUH

NUH HUHH

NUH HUH

NUH HUH

*gasp* S-SIR!! YOU CAN'T ****ING CUSS IN THIS ****ING SHIT ANIM 😡😡, CURSING IS ****ING HORRID AND IT'S A SHITTY THING TO DO 🙄🙄🙄😡

YOU WON'T DO IT YOU ****ING WIMP 🙃

WHAT DO YOU WANNA BET?? HUH??

SIR?? WHAT ARE YOU WILLING IT BET??

To*

Sus 😦

TJAT JUST MAKES IT FUNNIER 😭

<3

I don't understand people, honestly. I wish I could, and considering I'm still willing to forgive you, but you ignore me and walk away. I thought helping you for almost 2 years would mean you wouldn't do this type of stuff, but honestly, people I've met a month ago support me more than you, isn't that sad? I help ever single one of you, and if you don't want my opinion I just let you vent to me, tell me everything you hate about people, or yourself, and not tell a single soul about what you tell me. I feel it's wrong to tell others your personal business, and you trust me with it, therefore I have no right to spread it like wild fire.

Yet, even after all this, when people I personally, have triggered me, PTSD, or some other episode, you believe their lies over my truth, because you find it entertaining. You think it's funny. You think, that because I trust you, the trust cannot be broken, just because I fear losing people. Honestly, I resolve your conflicts, I give insight, and do my very best to help you, because I care. I care about you. But you go around, and start spreading lies now my own brother doesn't even want to talk to me.

I know, I'm pretty selfish, yes, I'm not perfect, I get scared easy, and act out of emotion. I ran away, not because I was ashamed. But because I was scared, I was being threatened. Not by you. But by family. It scared me. I feared everything was going to turn out as it had before. That my dad was right. I would do exactly what he said I'd do. The only difference being, I'm not sure if I can even make it past 18 years old at this point. Nothing looks bright anymore. And I'm scared, really scared, I'm failing school, just like I was told I would, but not because I'm lazy, but because I'm just so tired, so tired of being here, I don't want to be here. Very few things even keep me going to bother to see another day.

I wish I didn't scare easy, I wish I died cry easy. It only shows weakness, or at least that's what I was raised to believe. Even then, I can't stop it, I'm overly emotional, and get attached to people and things to easily, then become afraid to let go, or to be replaced, and if I feel it's happening, I start become a bit of an asshole, I start ignoring people, I start getting angrier faster, because I'd you are gonna leave, I'd rather have you leave hating me, instead of loving me, I'd rather you wish death on me, that way I know where you truly lay, and if you stay, even after that, I'll feel guilt, yes, I know I will, but with how amazing they are, they are going to keep me going, because they care. Unlike you.

Is it healthy?? no not at all, I'm trying to improve though, I'm trying to stop this behaviour I've had for so long, I don't want to hurt people. Doing this will only hurt others, and myself, because it hurts to watch someone leave in the first place, but I don't know how else to get rid of people who I feel don't care anymore or at all. One day, I'm going to hurt someone, badly because of this. So I need to stop. But you aren it helping, you are only making my actions seem right, you left, then bad mouthed me, then I started acting like an ass. Then you come to me, crying, whining, begging. I can't even look you in the eyes, let alone your direction, you make me cringe, with hurt, regret, and disgust.

Even then, I still thing you can turn this around, but maybe not with me around to see it, but I hope you have a good heart. I don't want you to be sad, or alone. I want the best for you, I want the best for everyone, and I think most people can change, for the better, and improve their lives, for them and those around them.