I don't know what to do anymore.... my once chance at the ONE thing I wanted to do is gone.... I won't learn everything I need to know so I am not going to pass it.... I don't even want to try anymore now.... the very first day that we are doing this and learning the basics are gone now....

I don't want to try anymore.... I'm a big mess.... Kind of want to die and by kind of I mean a lot.... This is becoming one of the worst days ever........