how do i know they watched me? When r gave me her password, i didnt know what i was going to do from the point, but they all made posts about me. They had the time to shame me. But they could care less about how i felt.

those months and these leading up to it have been the worst of my life.

everythings going downhill and i cant talk to anyone. I dont trust anyone anymore. They just. Wait. And use people's blind wrongdoings to shame them.

Then again im overreacting. Ive bottled up these feelings because i knew they would mock me.

And i just sit here and watch them make fun of little kids and their interests. You all are ****ing monsters sometimes.

then again i let this website turn me into one.

i dont want to sleep. Everytime i sleep i have these nightmares about everyone i know.

I dont feel safe anymore.

i just want out, i dont want to deal with this anymore. I want someone i could trust.

This isnt supposed to be about me. Im here to help people. Im supposed to be someone else, someone who gives what i seek. And yet i still want to cause a pain far worse than mine, to be satisfied, to know im okay, to know im safer than someone else.