天海くん
This took to long (I'm dead)
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第十一年
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Icarus Challenge
"High risk"
by:
MaxiTheNerd 
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06.12.2025
10 comments
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
06.12.2025 03:00
LinkIve been doing research on DID for a few years now since i was wondering if i had it and i keep taking tests and getting the high risk thing ;-; it would be great to know what is wrong with me but i still have the autism diagnosis that probably wont be until im an adult at this point since its so expensive. Neither me or my family have the money for all my medical problems, i already have so many and im going into surgery next year too ;-; idk why i have to be such a problem and why i have so many things wrong with me it genuinely makes me angry and i keep trying to tell myself im overreacting and overthinking and that i need to get over it and that i dont have DID or autism but it seems very likely i do and w
it would be amazing to have a diagnosis and finally figure out whats wrong with me, i dont want to be that person whos like "yeah i have autism adhd depression dissociative identity disorder marfan syndrome and scoliosis" because bro i just sound like i want ppl to pity me which is the last thing i wan
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
06.12.2025 03:05
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I have therapu tomorrow maybe ill talk to my therapist about this but im really scared to because i dont want her to just go oh yeah youre faking for attention and ill be like ok
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
06.12.2025 03:13
LinkIf i tell my mom secretly she'll probably like bruh why u so woke and annoying stop trying to be different
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
06.12.2025 03:16
LinkIm bored snd it is making me think too much shdieisbahsjsbhsha
ehh. i dunno if she can just outright say that, i've never had a proper therapist but it's their job to try and help you find the answer and solution to things no? she should at least take it into consideration
Im just super paranoid that shes gonna secretly think im faking and like somehow try to make me think i am without outright saying it idk she is really nice and she seems to care about me but im still scared about what she thinks of me
again i don't have a therapist so forgive me if i'm wrong but they shouldn't be allowed to judge considering it's literally their job to help you out. if this topic is bringing you genuine concern and affecting you then it shouldn't be something she takes lightly
Thank you this makes me feel a little better i think ill try to talk to her about it tomorrow im just afraid she'll be pitying me when i just want help and advice
she likely will but if you can play along you can get to what you want hopefully
^^^ I agree !! It'll definitely be helpful to bring up your concern with your therapist so she can help you to understand it better and maybe suggest further actions you could take. I don't think she'd be bothered hearing about a concern you have, since it will likely help her to know more about what you're going through so she can help you get the help you need! It is really scary to open up to someone like that, at least for me, but I think it'll be worth it ^_^