I just ****ing choked on relish.

You know when ur stuck at a follower number for so long that whenever you see someone followed you it just registers in your brain yhat someone UNFOLLOWED you Just because the last number changed

I'm still infatuated with him and I can't get him off my mind- I broke his heart with how I felt bit it was for tye best right? I was so stressed I just gave in and told him fine, I could've gotten on my knees and begged or lied to him but now it's too late I knew he would wanna leave the moment I told him it was a crush it was the truth I can't tell what anyone wants from me anymore I knew lying would keep him by my side but I wouldn't be able to deal with the guilt It wasn't a lie though You can build a future with someone you daydream about bringing on cute dates You can I just don't see it the same way as others do and now he's gone and I can't help but to wonder why I didn't lie or beg Even if I was stressed why didn't I beg-? **** I loved him I did-

ROSIEEEEEXJDJDH I missed you hiiii Feeling better from what cuz mentally? No Physically... Kinda-

Hehe,,okay so you're not gonna be surprised at allll!!! I'm 78% sure I'm going through a manic episode rn and my therapist thinks so too--- An Anyway I may or may not have gotten into another petty argument,,,👉👈 I tried to vent to a friend and they misinterpreted what I was trying to say- and in the end it ended up with them telling me to kms because..well I don't know why I guess it was a heat of the moment thing,,and now I'm single and very much friendless all in a couple of hours 😎

Days sometimes weeks- it was all my bad for egging them on but I really just wanted to find out what made them tick,,I ended up psychoanalyzing someone a bit too much and they left- But then after that I calmed down and realized it was probably just some scared kid trying to defend their reputation- ANYWAY I WAS ON CALL WITH ELLIOT AND I CUT MY KNEE ON MY SHATTERED IPAD

Yeahhh but he wasn't my friend Er its a long story but it's FA drama ypu don't wanna hear abt- basically I vented to my friend abt someone, they talked to him abt it and then he started shit- :))) but over the entire time I couldn't stop thinking about how much you've been here for me- its like having an older sibling again!!! That hasn't done something to traumatize me obvi NO IT HURTS CUZ TYSON KEEPS TRYING TO LICK IT

Yes

I know,,,👉👈

All the time*

Yes

Like ur face

Cuz ur British

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