awwe :< look, im sorry about how you feel, but my HONEST truth is that you were never put in this world to leave it sooner than anyone should, im sorry you feel this way, im not a collage degree therapist but i do like to study Psychology because i wanna help people in my life like you. it maybe hard, but your a strong person, not to mention very talented ;-; if i do say so myself. please dont die you have so much to live for, you have your whole life ahead of you! i would never say your exaggerating because we all feel down at some points. its just hitting you harder than other people. on my flipanim page i have a vent post i recommend letting it out then keeping it bottled up if its too personal or you dont want to share it then i understand. you seem like your dealing with a high level of depression some ways that help people is talking or drawing it out put your feelings in words or art (some people even dance about their feelings) but i hope you feel better. take a break if you need it.